its doesnt matter to me anymore..

2009-12-24T20:22:00.005+08:00

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2009-12-23T10:10:00.002+08:00

i know i've been selfish.
i know i've been unreasonable.
i know i've been losing my temper every now & then.
i know i've been making our life difficult & miserable.
i know i've never thought of ur feelings.
i know everyting have become meaningless now,
i know sometings wun change, and it will never change
i know i shldnt have expect much from u, bcos in the end all i get was nothing but disappointments.
i know i shldnt have avoid.
but now, avoiding everyting that i could ish wad i can do now.
bcos ...
u'll nvr understand how i felt.
u'll nvr know hw hurt i was.
u'll nvr know hw dishearted i felt.
u'll nvr know hw tired i felt.
u'll nvr know wad i want.
just lyk i'll nvr know how u felt & wad u want.

its scary when u realise the person u always tout u understand suddenly turn out to be the someone u nvr understand.

2009-12-22T12:08:00.004+08:00

came across a blog and i saw this post.
thou its quite meaningful but its hard to achieve, isnt it?
sometings are easier said than done.

how to be a better couple - 10steps to enjoying each other better.

1) be realistic about each other.
dont try to turn ur partner into someting he or she is not. let's face it, guys - there's only 1 Pamela Anderson in the world, and even she had had her implants removed! give ur gal a break & understand that her physical appearance is NOT going to change overnite with e help of a few facials or treatments. and ladies, Brad Pitt has already been taken, so u're gonna have to do with what ur guy is like. chill out, love each other for what you are. there is more to ur partner than what meets the eye.

2) always talk things out.
now guys, i know tis is not ur fave pasttime or mode of resolving issues, but u know what? this works with e gals. dont make assumptions abt each other's feelings. learn to express urself better so that ur partner understands wad u're angry abt, or hurt abt, or even happy abt! when u stop toking to each other frm e heart, its the beginning of the end.

3) do stuff tgt.
mk an effort to do tings tgt. do some sports or involve yourselves in some shared activities; someting both of u enjoy or are interested in. it could be as simple as watching movies tgt, or just strolling hand-in-hand down orchard road. watch soccer w him once in a while thou the green patch on TV puts u to slp in 3secs. and guys, do give in if ur gal asks for another day at window-shopping, rather than suggest tat she go out w her girlfriends for 'tat sort of activities' instead. if u're spending more tyme with ur friends rather than with ur partner, its a warning that u're drifting apart.

4) meet each other halfway.
if he agrees to throw that rotten t-shirt w e 'the rock' print, u shldnt kick up much of a fuss if he asks u to keep ur room tidy. there's gotten be a little giving & taking in a relationship, so learn to meet each other halfway.

5) show ur love.
buy her flowers or candy or perfume every now & then, even if u have been tgt for 5yrs. its wonderful to continue showing someone tat u care for him/her. cook him a special meal, paint him a valentine's day card. knit him mini-socks he cant wear, buy him a packet of milk for breakfast or pack his wardrobe for him. so he knows u can still be romantic & loving despite having been tgt for quite a while.

6) respect each other.
stop making jokes abt her hair or skin, or wadever it is u love to laugh at. ask urself if she tinks if its funny. and if he has an inferiority complex abt his height, stop ogling at tall guys and mk him feel worse. love is abt respecting each other's feelings & being sensitive to each other at all times.

7) bury e past.
stop bringing up e past. gals - dun bring up e happy tings abt u & ur ex to ur guy, it would just make him jealous or unhappy. and guys, dun talk abt e happy times that u had with ur ex or mention abt her in ur every other sentence as it would mk ur gf feel unhappy & she might tink tat u saying all this bcos u're gonna get back w ur ex or not interested in her anymore.

8) sit on ur jealousy.
all of us go thru spell of insecurity at e beginning of e relationship, but dont translate that insecurity into jealousy. if u're gonna go thru ur partner's mail & cupboard, and eavesdropping on conversations, u now someting is wrong w u. jealousy is lyk a poison tat slowly spreads thru e relationship before finally killing it. trust ur partner; love has to have trust in it.

9) keep ur commitments to each other.
if ur partner is standing u up all e tyme & cancelling dates and breaking promises, u need to talk! if u're in a relationship, mk ur partner ur priority & dun disappoint them if u can help it. its realli terrible when someone promises to take u to dinner, and then calls to cancel it. dont mk promises u cant kip! if ur partner starts to feel tat he/she is not impt enough to u, u may just lose him/her.

10) be honest.
honesty is not scowling at hw awful she looks 1st ting in the morning, or telling him that he has the biceps of a fly! when we say 'be honest', we mean expressing ur feeling clearly, nt being bitingly cruel. when u're hurt, say so, and when u're angry, tell him/her, w/o getting hysterical. if u cant be honest with ur partner, who can u be honest with? love is also abt honesty & a relationship whr no honesty exists probably isnt worth it!

2009-09-03T22:24:00.003+08:00

todae ish my last dae working at cei..
feeling kinda sad and bu she de. ):
3months had passed, shuo kuai you bu hui hen kuai. sob.
anyway, had a wonderful dae todae (:
in the morning, i went ard the mkting department giving them the custard puff (:
den lunch, we went amk hub diao xiao er to eat good(but ex) food.
ordered set meal for 10peeps, den the bill add up to ard 270+ i tink.
hai them po fei le.
after lunch, im a busy bee again (:
going ard giving those colleagues present to thank them for the meal and guidance (:
den faster do wadever work i can clear todae de.
dao le 5plus, jiu feeling more emo le.. ):
before i left, i cam-whored alot w my colleagues (:
its was so fun..
gonna miss them and my cha siew rice riao ):

and .. hello nyp and yu pian mi fen (:

2009-08-16T23:58:00.002+08:00

*sigh*
e no. of tings that ish happening to me/ard me ish increasing.
from family, to friends, to my future..

i just want to hope and pray that everyone ard me would be safe and sound.
and most importantly, be HAPPY ...

2009-08-16T02:04:00.002+08:00

*sigh* down with terrible eye infection since thur.
my upper and lower eyelid for my right eye are so red and swollen,
and my eyes looks so small compared to my left eye ):
im lyk an alien, a super fugly one. ):
really hate having to wear sunglasses when i go out these 2days.
hais. hope i would be able to recover on monday so that i can go back to work $_$

anyway been feeling troubled these few daes.
which path shld i realli tk?
wad do i really want? *hais*
seems lyk these 3yrs that i've spent in nyp is totally wasted bcos it's isnt helping me in deciding my future path..
and now, im hanging in the air.
neither here nor there. *cries*
almost everyone ard me have found the path they want, but im still being so indecisive, not knowing what i want.
hais. feeling v v hopeless.
i need someone to enlighten me pls!!

2009-07-26T12:25:00.000+08:00

so much tings had happened recently..
everyting happened so fast that just when im still unprepared for the changes,there's more to be adapted.
why did tings turned out to be liddat..
why didn't tings goes smoothly..
one after another, it just happens ...
when will all these stop!
feeling v lost nw.
baobei ish nt with me. i seriously need his shoulder badly for me to cry on...

2009-07-11T01:33:00.004+08:00

woke up with a bad headache and sore throat tdy.
guess i realli slept too much but it been ages since i slept for 12hrs
so yea, the feeling ish shiok. =X
anyway, today ish the 5th day baobei ish not ard with me. ):
hais. these few daes ish realli hen nan guo ..
but there's nth i can do. sob.
everyday there isnt anyting for me to look forward to cos i wun be able to meet up with him after work lyk i always do.
i'm not looking forward to this weekends either cos he wun be able to book out ):
hais. life ish miserable and lonely w/o him around. )':
but thankfully, i've gt my friends and family w me.
thanks for all the encouragements and supports. i appreciate that yea.
anyway, did nth much after baobei enlisted on 7july except that i catch up with my clinques on tuesday and went out w sis on friday (:

6th july 2oo9 - monday

bb came over to my place in the morning den after slacking we went out for movie and lunch.

finally we watched transformer @ cathay. (:

slacked ard town area and had fish n co for dinner since bb ish craving for it =D

after that settled down at cathay again to tk pics before we went home ):

so bu she de to part with him, but cant help it ...

7th july 2oo9 - tuesday

met up with sam, net, sh, mc and jason in town for dinner after work.
dine-in @ heeren shokudo.
all the japanese foods are so yummy delicious. =D
we ordered few dishes and shared among ourselves.
v filling oso. price quite affordable, each pax ard 20bucks. heex
headed home early due to the outbreak of my topid hong mo..
suddenly became worst so rushed back to bishan to see doc ):
grr. digusting ..

1oth july 2oo9 - friday

went amk hub for dinner with my sister and niece.

initially wanted to settled down for dessert @ MOF but in the end we went to another dessert shop beside MOF for ice-cream waffles.

the ice-cream waffles are quite yummy delicious.

also tried the waffles bites with cinnamon + honey.

but the service there super slow.

we waited for quite long before our desserts are served when there isnt any crowd. -_-

2009-07-04T01:36:00.001+08:00

*cries* baobei ish enlisting v v soon!!
wo bu yao~~~
even thou we been spending most of our tyme tgt from thur till todae but i still felt that tyme ish not enuff.
hais. i realli realli nid more tyme to be with him ):
cant imagine how my life would be w/o him by my side.
im alrdy so used of him w me all the time and listening to all my naggings, nonsense and stuff le.
cries. nw that he ish enlisting le, im gonna be alone. )':
emo alone, cry alone, shop alone, crap alone, happy alone ... ):
hais. ):

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o2 june 2oo9 - thursday

met baobei early in the morning for mac breakfast (:
den headed back home to prepare and off we go to vivocity!!!
watched ice age 3 - dawn of the dinosaur , 3d de.
hahas. its my 1st time watching 3d movie, so ish baobei. (we ish mountain tortise =X)
and we saw ah ba and joyce at vivo as well!!! =D
hahas so qiao. we going down escalator, they coming up. lols
so we met up with them for chilling/catching-up session @ clarke quay at night after e movie ended (:
we ish crap dao 4gt the tyme so in the end we cabbed home at 12plus, but it was fun! =D

o3 june 2oo9 - friday

suppose to wake up @ 930 for morning jog
but in the end, me & bb lai chuang until 11plus 12. (we ish pig) =X
so yi wake up i jiu become "hsewife" le, a happy "hsewife" *smiles*
been long since i cooked/baked for him so i baked some prata sausage and do sherbic for him =D
den we jiu eat, watch show, slack before we begins our "sports day"
lols. ran for 2.4km! so tiring ):
ish lao le, cant run too much =X
after washing up, we slack and ate our dinner.
den i become "hsewife" again, he become "maid". (:
i ish baked muffins.
den he helped my mum blend fruit juice and helped to wash e dishes. =D
it was tiring but fun to do tings tgt w him. (but duno when can do these tings w him again ):)
but still having him ard, mk my life wan zheng (: *ilu!*

o4 june 2oo9 - saturday

baobei ish indeed a pig!
he lai-chuang tdy again. hahas.
but for me, i cant lai chuang cos gonna wake up to prepare breakfast for him. ):
he bully me! but i yuan yi let him bully for these few daes =X (opps!)
after breakfast we jiu head out to mit bb's sis @ fareast before heading to his hse for his sis's bdae party.
slacked, eat, drink @ his hse. (:

p/s: im missing him again even thou we just parted ):
p/s 2: if onli i can stop e tyme in order to spend more tyme w him. ):

2009-06-27T02:08:00.003+08:00

some pple are just so selfish and brainless. (oh well, i guess most of the pple onli tink abt themselves.)
i've met too many selfish pple recently.
hao xin mei hao bao ish indeed v TRUE!
wad do u get in return when u treat someone good?
NOTHING! maybe they'll only return u with betray, lies and all sorts of shit stuff.
grr. !

p/s: fuck off la u bitch!!!

2009-05-18T02:30:00.003+08:00

where is my happiness?
why am i living in a world where it doesnt even belongs to me.

cant i just die.
it would put an end to everyting ..

i hate to be so weak.
i hate to cry.
i hate this feeling.
i hate feeling helpless!
fuck!

2009-05-08T00:53:00.001+08:00

speechless ...
not hoping for anyting else anymore. =D
its useless anyway ..
tyme to get alife and stop wasting time. =D
i will stop being emo from now on.
byebye the emo me xD

trust no one but yourself =D

2009-05-03T14:59:00.000+08:00

after that incident, i dun trust you anymore ..
i've learnt my lesson! (thanks to u.)

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it seems lyk u dun realli care abt that issue, don't u?

心灰意冷 ...

2009-04-25T23:13:00.000+08:00

i seriously screwed everything !!! ):

but still thanks those who encourages me, listen to my whinning and console me.
many many thanks.. (:

2009-04-20T23:04:00.003+08:00

*sigh* few more mths to bb's enlistment date .
wonder hw life would be for me. ):
day by day, im becoming more n more dependent on him.
w/o him ard by my side, who ish going to listen to all my whining, endure my bad temper, acc me when im bored, cheer me up when im down, go out w me ....
*sigh*

p/s: im all alone again ):

2009-03-25T21:21:00.007+08:00

aww. im deeply in love with kim hyun joong!!..

he's so super duper sweet can (:

so so envy the buin who got "married" w him in the show "we got married".

khj's shy, doesn't know hw to express himself v much but yet he did so much sweet tings for the buin!! (even thou they are not realli married)

this might sound crazy but if im the buin, i sure melt infrt of him de. X:

guess most of the gals would oso melt after if he did such stuffs to them ba xD

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some of the sweet tings (at least to me it's sweet) he did was:

- folded 1000 paper cranes for her!!!

- playing guitar and piano plus singing for her!!!

- always giving her endless surprises!!!

- brought medicines for her when she's sick and hurt

- and many many more !!!

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tell me how many guys can be so romantic and do such sweet stuffs.

perhaps out of 10guys only 1 does?

some fotos they've taken during their 100days of marriage (:

2009-03-13T14:06:00.001+08:00

will i regret what i am going to do?

maybe?
perhaps?
yes?..

2009-03-08T22:50:00.000+08:00

disheartened is all i felt now.

indeed hopes would bring disappointments ..
no more hoping from now on.

2009-02-19T21:18:00.003+08:00

i wish i knew wad i wanted ..
wad i hope for ..
but dere's something bothering me ...
and im v lost ..!!!!!

2009-02-18T09:39:00.000+08:00

feeling down recently .
realize everything ish so fragile .
and ...

2009-02-17T02:59:00.002+08:00

i miss the good old times w u.

p/s: someone pls tk me awy , bring me to somewhere where dere's endless happiness..

2009-02-16T16:31:00.008+08:00

woohoo ..!

finally i changed my blogskin after 12345678years X:
previously was plain lazy to change, but now i've got plenty of time to do that. (:
but hors, i realise this blogskin mk dao my previous posts de entry v difficult to see cos of the font color i used, but i lazy change all the entries de font color. X:

hmm ...
anyway, so bu xi guan nvr go school cos cant mit sikarc for lunch, cant chat with them, cant crap, cant gossip. ):
hais.

anyway here are some of the pics taken w them and others in sch ):

taken after pics mock interview (:

sikarc with the best CS teacher ever (:

class foto (: (p/s: duno why e foto size so werid)

taken when we in school doing foo project (:

with neh pok (:

with eileen (: (pardon my kuku face)with ann ka (:

foo presentation (:sakarc with meiting (: w postopia (:w postopia (:w postopia (:class foto w mr. foo (:w mr foo.

last dae of school ):

w nat (:w ann (:

2009-02-13T00:48:00.002+08:00

woohoo ..!!
13022009 (friday) marks the day of freedom (thou its suppose to be unlucky todae xD)
3 years of torture, unhappiness, stress and nightmare has offically ended today!!
this year ish the worst nitexmare of all.
stayed up whole nitex to do projects, barely few hrs of slp to chiong projects and study for exams.
how "wonderful" and memorable it is, thanks to nyp -_-
BUT now its not gonna to happen again :D
and im so gonna slp gao gao and slack gao gao before i start hunting for job. (:

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hais. on the other hand, im so sad and she bu de.
cos gonna part with everyone le esp. sikarc ): *cries*
3years of bonding eh, now gonna part le. hais (wo bu yao!!)
gonna miss everyone so much. ):
gonna miss all the days in poly
gonna miss all the days when we gossip, laugh lyk nobody business and crap
*sigh* ):

sikarc - lets meet up soon for mahjong session and shopping. (:
other clinques - oso mit up soon. some gathering yea. (:
hope everything will go well for everyone in future. :D

2008-11-15T01:08:00.002+08:00

feeling so sick now. *cries*
flu doesnt seems to get better despite those medication.
cough and sore throat seems to get worst.
mayb due to wad i've been eating =X

hee. anyway after so mani emo post, finally im going to post a-not-so-emo-post. :D
but ... its a super overdue post. :P

o7 november 2oo8 - friday

im officially .. 18 years old =X (lols okays im lying)
anyway thanks to those who remembered my birthday and wishes me on this special dae. (:
thanks for all the celebrations and presents too.!!! *hugs*

hee. celebrated with family and baobei todae (:
although its just a simple celebration but still im a happy gal (:
many many LOVES...

o8 november 2oo8 - saturday.

celebrated with si karc, baobei and clinques todae.
went chinatown, the 10bucks ktv there for k-session.
heehee. sang until 7 then headed down to heeren - fish n co for dinner.
yummy yummy !!
but the new york fish and chip eat riao abit sianx, cos too big and oily riao =X
hehe. then sw and joyce keep refilling their drink dao the person remembered them.
but quite hua suan yea. lols unlimited refills mahs so neh mind =D
after that, chilled at fish n co w the guys toking abt NS life and experiences before heading home. (:

p/s: thanks for the celebration and all the HELLO KITTY!!! .. :D

14 november 2oo8 - friday.

met up with besties @ j8 for dinner.
hee. had pizza and pasta @ pizza hut. =X
i noe im not suppose to eat such heaty stuff but i just couldn't resist e temptation of good food. =X
anyway nvr failed to enjoy myself whenever there's meet-up session w them.
hee. toking back abt the past, those funny encounters and stuff. :D
realli ish missed secondary life.. so carefree and fun..

p/s: photos to be uploaded later =D

2008-11-03T16:18:00.002+08:00

am i really happy ...

2008-10-30T01:07:00.000+08:00

i need a shoulder for me to cry on ..

2008-10-04T00:37:00.004+08:00

lost ...?

emo ...?

isolated ...?

troubled ...?

mixedfeelings ...?

splitpersonality ..?

idunowadamifeelingnowcositsafeelingsthatishindescribable ...?

p/s: perhaps this is just a crap post .. cos i dun even noe wad i wan , wad i can ask for ... (:

2008-10-01T00:22:00.001+08:00

after 123456789 months, the kuku me finally mit up with kyandi and romi in town todae (:
first headed to ps then to lido shaw.
helped romi to trace her art tingy but couldnt realli help much huh, cos my art simply sucks.
anyw it was great to catch up w them once again (:

prays and hope that romi, kyandi and kaela would be happy always...

the artpiece that romi's fav designer drew.

2008-09-29T23:30:00.008+08:00

p/s: this is a super duper long post ..

26th september 2008 - friday (:

a day out with my secondary clinques (:

mit them st8 after i ended work and we headed to town !

initially wanted to dine in at sushitei but it was so packed that we have to wait for lyk ard 45 to 1hr.

gosh, tink by the time we wait until there's seat for us we alrdy staving gao gao riao.

hahas. so we walked to blah blah blah place,then to wheelock

again sakaesushi, fish&co and blahblahblah was so packed

so we came across this japanese restaurant, sunwithmoon .

there wasnt much crowd outside so we thought there might be seat for us.

BUT still we gonna wait for lyk ard 20mins? -_-

after idunohwlonglater, the staff called and finally we can have our dinner !! (:

chilled and had our gals talk after dinner.

happy, fun, enjoyable, funny, gr8 is wad i can sae (:

27th September 2008 - saturday (:

baobei was so sweet todae (:

he came over to my place in the late afternoon and when i asked him whr are we going?

he said just follow him can riao. hee (:

on the way to the mysterious place, my curiosity arouse!

so i plead him, torture him (im not a gd gf =X), tao his hua and blahblahblah just to noe whr are we going =X

but he still din tell me until i act EMO =X

so as promise when we alighted the bus he asked me whr ish the place i wanted to go the most.

but i guess bu dao so finally he told me ish chinese garden !!!

so super excited can cos i ish can c hellokitty riao thou it's a waste of money (:

reached there at ard 8plus then this kukutoiletkingofmine wanted to go toilet.

then i sway mouth sae wait we in toilet then ting dao bom bom bom (cos gt fireworks that dae at 830)

then realli ish bom bom bom when we in the toilet hahas =X

so we faster walk to the lake to c the fireworks.

felt so xinfu thou its nt the 1st time watching fireworks with him (:

anyw the place was filled with so many nice nice sanrio characters lattern there but my lousy samsung kuku fone tk de pics are so lan ):

anyw i shld let some of the nice and clear pics do the talking cos this post is wayyyyyyy too long =X

sanrio characters having party yea .

hello kitty (:

f8 - melody (frontview)

f8 - melody (sideview)

hellokitty racing badge

sanrio characters on water. (the water reflection super nice)

hellokitty cycling (:
woot! hellokitty ish #1

crocodile ? aligator?

hellokittyf8goraces is LOVE, so ish baobei

2008-09-15T21:45:00.007+08:00

once broken, always broken ..
the scar will remain there forever ..

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result will be out in 2more hrs.
wish me luck.
hope it wun disappoint me ..

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have no idea why im feeling down all of the sudden,
prehaps im just having mood swing or letting my imagination run wild.
just some random thought: who will be there for me when im at my lowest point ..

2008-09-09T20:10:00.006+08:00

2nd week working at alexandra hospital alrdy, beginning to adapt to the working environment dere and it seems like my phobia-after-attachment is gone.
BUT everyday is getting more and more busy and sianx *sigh*
realli ish get paid to help them clear all the sai gang dey din do.
neh de! AH de sai gang ish realli veri sai lahs! ~~(do until i everyday shit =X)~~
super outstanding sai gang, i should sae.
all the kuku verifications that we must do now is lyk super long ago then the datas and emails are so disorganise, liddat hw to do seh! wah piang!
hais. summore some of the school's contacts so difficult to find or cannt be found, dou duno hw to continue! ):
some even worst, no reply at all or take their kuku own sweet time to reply. grr!
just 2 wks plus more to endure and i can slp gao gao and enjoy gao gao riao!
i ish must enjoy before school reopen!!! (:

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anyw went out with sikarc and clinques on sunday.
headed to cine to celebrate yiling's belated bdae (:
rented the dvd "over her dead body", was quite a nice and funny show.
esp the part "take the bird" hahas! =X
we had pasta mania for dinner and headed home at 9plus.
sob time realli passed veri fast, havent enjoy gao gao then must go hm riao ):
but todae ish kan dao so many long-time-no-see friend and had a great time. hee!

also, THANKS JEFFREY (TALL) for the 2 macdonald HELLOKITTY!!!!!!! =D

2008-09-02T23:46:00.003+08:00

feeling rather emo and lost recently.
i hate to react this way, but i cant ctrl! (i seriously hate the current me)
anyw luckily there's sis, mum, dad, him and (maybe friends?) with me.

i need to be stronger,
i need to be more independent,
i need to tink positively,
i need to overcome all the fears within me,
i need to overcome the phobia that is haunting me,
i need to ..........................

2008-08-30T23:10:00.005+08:00

woot!
finally fyp have ended!! (hee i noe im ~~wols~~ cos fyp have alrdy ended for nearly 2wks)
15august marked the freedom of all P6 students!!! woot!
finally can enjoy my nearly 2months of holiday after 6 hectic months of iap and fyp. :D
but time realli passes veri fast, nw it's cuming to the end of my 2nd week of holiday,
and i'm starting work next monday at alexandra hospital. ):
*sigh* i havent even enjoy my holiday and yet im gonna work riao. ):
whats more, i havent met up with my long-time-no-see clinques and now im gonna work. ):
how boring can my life be!!! ):

p/s sorry for being so grumpy in this post (:

2008-08-09T00:02:00.000+08:00

im currently feeling so stressed up.
there's neverending work waiting for me to complete.
BUT there isnt much time left.
*sigh* i wished i could finish everyting in time and do a good job for my fyp,
but it just seems so impossible.
felt that im breaking down soon, someone pls help me. ):
im just so hopeless and useless.

2008-08-02T15:24:00.004+08:00

*sigh* why time passes so quickly during fyp !!!
now im onli left with 2weeks which is ard 10days to do my project, report as well as my presentation.
i sure wun be able to finish the task that my sup had asked me to do on thursday de.
hais. more and more tings to do and yet there isnt enuff time.
wanted to start on my report and presentation, but i dun even noe wad to put in.
hais. ):

hope everything will goes well for si karc and the rest ba.
good luck & jy to ann for tue's presentation.
good luck & jy to neh & leen for wed's presentation

2008-07-26T23:41:00.006+08:00

this 2 fruitful days was spending together with my beloved sa karc.

stayed over at cock's hse yesterday nitex (:

hee. its was fun looking at those past photos and videos in leen's lappy.

i missed the past, but we couldnt go back to that time le ):

gonna be seperated with some of the clinques next semester, *sob*

seriously, i missed year 1 and year 2 life, where we all slacked together, kisiao together, pon lessons together, studied together. hais

hope all of us will still stay close in future (:

hahas i ish off topic riao, back to wad we did at leen's hse -
before we went to bed, we watched a movie(which i 4got the title alrdy).

we all watched dao wanna go to lalaland riao, so jiu din continue watch le
then chatted for awhile before we realli ish go to lalaland at ard 2plus am.
woke up @ ard 12plus in the afternoon, washed up, cam whore and we went for lunch. (:
after lunch, we shopped ard westmall before heading to jurong entertainment centre for kbox!
the service there was horrible yea, took ages to deliver neh's chips and my squid.
how we feel sia, tsk!
we sang until ard 7plus 8 den i went to mit baobei for dinner (:
below are some photos taken this 2 days (:

25th july 2oo8 - friday

qianyu . neh

yiling . qianyu

26th july 2oo8 - saturday

si karc [ e pajiao me ): ]

si karc :D

with kukuwith hen

with cock

at kbox with leen

2008-07-25T16:40:00.000+08:00

feeling so troubled over so many things.
things which i duno how to sae, things which i duno who i can confide in.
*sigh* my life is all screwed up now.
im trying very hard to be strong,
trying very hard to faced wad has alrdy changed,
trying very hard to act as if nth has happened,
but why does it seems so hard.
hais. all i could do ish to cry secretly.
totally hate this kind of feelings.
hais. i've lost everything.
all alone ...

2008-07-24T23:25:00.001+08:00

todae was a super unlucky day for me.
woke up @ 3+am due to the ~~kuku~~ itchiness of my ~~kuku~~ eyes
feeling super giddy when i sat infrt of my dressing table.
tinking that i will be feeling much more better after getting more sleep, i went to bed again.
woke up @ 7+am and still im feeling giddy. ):
asked dad to fetch me to school and the 1st ting i gt off dad's car was to take e ~~kuku~~ lift up to l4 and rush to the handicap toilet to vomit.
how sway.
rested my head on the table and a director or whoever walked past and asked me not to do that. -_-
then on the way home on bus 13, at one of the stops at amk, a bunch of MIC board the bus.
one of the ~~fugging~~ MIC actually sat beside me and he din even realise his ~~fcuking~~ MIC leg kicked dao mine.
argh. pissed.
den when i yao alight at my stop de shi hou, dey oso alighting, and the MIC who sat beside me so no manners.
don't even noe how to say excuse me and keep pushing cos they wanted to get off.
duno they ish dun haf eyes or wad, cant they see we also wanted to alight.
NB! cant they just go back to there country. neh de!

2008-07-23T12:29:00.014+08:00

this is going to be a rojak post -

it's already week 9 of fyp and yet im still stuck with my ~~kuku~~ project.
seems lyk i wouldnt be able to finish the whole project in time.
hais. time is running out.
now im only left with ard 2 more weeks to do project and 1 week to do documentation.
*sigh* felt so helpless. hais.
spent 2 days of researching and i found nothing !
im so dead , very dead
any kind soul out there who is pro in asp.net can help me..! *sighx*

when will everyting go back to the past.
i noe i cant turn back time, but im still hoping for the day to come.
*sigh* i missed those few yrs of happy moments, but now it seems so far awy from me.
perhaps i should just accept what has already changed.
but yet, i will still keep trying to get make things changed for the better.
and i realli hoped it will. everything would be lyk the past.
i wished someone would understand how i feel, but where is the someone. *sighx* i duno..

todae is a very special day, its july e 23rd !! (:
1stly, its besties, romi's bdae (: *hugs*
2ndly, its our* 4mths anniversary. (:
3rdly, its a special day for yiling & eileen too. (:
so aint it a special day. hahas

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ROMI!
u're very missed! (i miss kyandi and kaela oso) (:

2008-07-21T12:40:00.004+08:00

*sigh* feeling so lost.
things have changed.
things aint lyk the past anymore.
i wished some things just wont changed,
i hoped everything could return to the past (but it aint gonna be the same anymore,ritex?).

TIRED OF EVERYTHING .

2008-07-12T16:05:00.002+08:00

been feeling troubled over some matters recently.
din noe who to toke to, but luckily she* was there for me when i felt so lost and helpless.
thanks alot, my friend.
guess she's the one whom i can trust and confide in such matters thou we din meet up for mths alrdy (:
feeling much better alrdy, after hearing wad she had said to me.
woot!

2008-06-26T23:15:00.000+08:00

woot! been so long since i last updated my blog.
i ish see spiderweb here. hahas (:
anyway, feeling damm lifeless for months already.
cos right after 3months of attachment, it's FYP!
grr. no breaks at all.
i'm wondering is nyp trying to kill us with so much stress. grr!!!
just hate the way they arrange our year 3 schedule. ):
*sigh* seems lyk i realli need to get down to work soon. now ish already week 5 and soon we will have our 1st presentation and wads more, i din realli start much on my project.
if this goes on, i will be so so dead in week 12. but the codings is realli killing me ):
hais. anyway things hasnt been going smoothly for me recently and i realli realli hope that everything would be fine from now on yea. (:

2008-03-18T14:21:00.002+08:00

been so long since i last blog.
there's so many things i wanted to blog, but there's isnt much time ever since attachment started.
*sighx* attachment was realli a nightmare for me.
especially with all the idiotic fcuked-up pple in the company and hafing to do all the chim stuffs that i din learn before.. *sighx*
i noe i would be able to learn by doing all those chim stuffs, but the stress is realli .... *sighx*
the onli thing that i can hope for now, is that everyting would goes well for me so that i can faster end this agony..!

sometimes i just wish that i could be stronger,
i could be more independent,
more optimistic,
more positive..
but i just cant be wad i wanna be.
*sighx*

sorry to mafan so many pple this few daes.
i noe i've been nuisance always saying all those stuffs that i shldnt have said,
but .. i just cant help it.
im sorry.

2007-12-14T22:06:00.000+08:00

common tests are officially over ..!!!
BUT still gonna rush 4projects during holidays.
argh. so irritating can.
so lazy to do anyting.
summore finally i can chiong oxj alrdy !!
woohoo. shiok eh. =]
gonna post some random pictures taken past few wks during lessons to end my entry. =D

o9th november 2oo7 -

eileen . yiling . qianyusi karc =]si karc =]

3oth november 2oo7 -

eileen . qianyunat . qianyuLOLS funny mike.

no #1 laughing biscuit mr. laughing biscuit =Xmike . qianyumike. LOLS

2007-11-28T22:11:00.000+08:00

been so long since i last blogged.
super duper busy with homeworks, projects, assignments and TESTS!
tout this semester would be much more better than last semester, BUT i was so wrong lahs.
this semester was much more hectic and stress than last semester.
3 to 4 tests in one week. wtf
when will all this shit end *sighx*
HAIS tmr still have wpdp quiz.
lyk so wth, non-stop one lorhs.
how we feel sia.
another ting is we're having our common tests in a few wks time.
NIGHTMARE can!

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went shopping with sis todae. =]
had sakae sushi for lunch cum dinner. LOLS
yummy yummy delicious!
shopped till we nearly drop dead.
cos the both of us were too tired
but still, i brought myself 2 bottoms and sis got herself a bag. =D
more shopping trips with her soon during holidays !!! *grins*

2007-11-07T22:32:00.000+08:00

had a very big surprise todae !!!
an unexpected one. =D
lotsa thanks to purpishh and all my secondary and poly friends.
din expect my 19th bdae would be so memorable.
but u pple are realli so lihai eh. gang up to keep the bbq from me.
but still i appreciate it !! *hugs*
love purpishh loads. they gave me 2 big big surprise this year!

p/s: i enjoyed veri veri much todae AND
i felt so LOVED! =D

p/s 2: thanks everyone for the bdae greetings, presents and cake =D
you pple are so wonderful *smiles*

hello kitty puzzle from a friend =Dhello kitty from him* =Dpig from apple & strawberry =Dso cute can =D

2007-11-05T23:09:00.001+08:00

[ o4 november 2oo7 - sunday ]

been so long since i last saw energy!
misses them alot !!!
esp mr.xie kunda =D
went to bugis for their autograph session todae.
the place was packed with fans and passerby [KPOs] =X.
super love their tianshengfangu dance lots!
super diao can. =]
din regret supporting them for so long (since come on gaiban till now) !!
they rocks ! =D

[ o5 november 2oo7 - monday ]

hugging session todae !!!
it was all lyk a dream.
everyting that happened seems so unrealistic.
thanks to chaiqin and audrey for the wonderful surprise.
it was so memorable that i'll never going to forget wad had happened todae !
thanks mr xie kunda too. =D
he made my day !!!

KUNDA IS LOVE !!!

energy <3mr xie kunda

so shuai can!

2007-11-03T21:03:00.000+08:00

celebrated my bdae with my secondary friends - sam, lynette, meichun, sihui, eugene, jason, zul and edmund.

headed to ms with sam, net, jason, zul and edmund for movie 1st

watched the game plan.

the show was funny and touching.

nearly teared, but i managed to ren =X

mit sihui and meichun after the movie, and we stoned outside mac for quite some time while waiting for eugene to end work.

had swensen for dinner. yummy.

headed to esplanade after dinner.

my fav. place ever =]

eugene left straight after we finished the cake.

then the rest of us stayed there to cam-whore. =D

chilled at starbucks with the gals after that.

i enjoyed chatting with them. yea!!

reached home @ ard 12plus.

im super tired yet happy. =]

p.s/ thanks for the tortise(speaker), necklace and the hellokitty cake.

sihui . qianyumeichun . qianyu lynette . qianyusamantha . qianyuzul . qianyujason . qianyusamantha . qianyu

hello kitty cake =D

im a happy gal =]the pitiful us =[bestiessamantha . qy . net . sihui . meichuneight of us =Dtortise speaker =Dnecklace =DLOVES .

2007-10-30T22:38:00.000+08:00

im a happy girl todae. =D
and the reason is cos of him!
finally im able to see him again after so long. =]
im looking forward to o4 nov & o5 nov !!!
esp o5nov lahs. =D
its was so unbelievable when cq told me that.
cant imagine how werid and akward it will be on that dae.
but afterall, its a rare chance so how can i miss it !!!
LOLS. so in order to enjoy myself, im gonna chiong my assignments and projects this week !!!
yes, he's my only motivation (i guess)

2007-10-25T13:35:00.000+08:00

im a gd sister todae =]
even though i was very reluctant and tired, i still accompanied my sis to exercise after school.
but since the both of us were very lazy, we kept complaining the moment we start to exercise. =X
ahh. im getting lazier and fatter alrdy.
anyway since im such a gd sister, i treated my sis to sakae sushi for dinner. =D
sushi !!! sashimi !!! soft shell crab !!!
they are all so yummy, and thats the reason why im getting fatter even after exercising.
i cant resist the temptation of foods!!! esp great foods!!! =]

2007-10-14T01:43:00.001+08:00

complexion have been very bad this few daes.
and sch starting in 2 days time.
everyting seems so meaningless to me.
nth seems to be right.
im so tired of everyting.
and i realli mean EVERYTING.
i duno who i shld really toke to
and i guess there isnt anyone who can understand wad im going on.
*sigh*
plsletmedie, freemefromallthispains..

2007-10-11T14:55:00.000+08:00

bbq with secondary classmates todae. =]
yea. all the pple are still as crappy and fun as ever.
enjoy bbq-ing with them.
most importantly, i saw many pple whom i havent seen for very long too. =D
after the bbq, we chatted almost everyting.
and the guys shared some creepy experiences with us.
yea, and i realise i havent changed much at all.
since i've been hitting them since sec sch till now =X
anyway its realli fun to have all this classmates ard.
duno when can we all mit up again. ='[

huidaoguoqu.

2007-10-05T23:19:00.000+08:00

celebrated sam's bdae todae.

reached sentosa at ard 3pm

the weather super duper hot lahs.
thank goodness we din bcum roasted pig. hahas.

and finally i did some exercise todae.

running after the volleyball. LOLS

headed to vivo in the evening.

walked ard while waiting for eugene, junjie n teckyew

came across this store(forget the name alrdy) selling candies and we got ourselves some yummy candy floss.

had thai express for dinner.

cam-whore and chill after that.

at sentosa

reflections

samantha . qianyu lynette . samantha . qianyu

jason . qianyu

outside vivocity. =]

2007-10-01T21:58:00.000+08:00

been working for the past 2 weeks @ watsons and guardian.
the job was ... BORING!
but the promoters tat im wking with are friendly pple.
and we gossip while rotting. =]
town with yiling todae.
and we did hair extention.
most importantly, i brought 2 tops and 1 pair of shoe. =]
yea. been so long since i shopped for clothes.
gonna do more shopping next time yea.
ahh. gonna start work tmr again.
sianzation. =[

yiling . qianyu

2007-09-18T19:03:00.001+08:00

went to many places hunting for jobs this few daes.
its so tiring and energy consuming.
im so sick of finding jobs and waiting for phone calls.
but thankfully, i received a call todae and i finally found a promoter job ! =D
but this job is onli until 30th sept.
argh. so sick ritex. why cant it be longer.
and bcos of this job, i couldnt go for an office interview tmr =[
i could have earn more for the admin job and work for the entire holiday. ='[
most importantly, admin job not so tiring lahs !
hais. sometimes i just hate myself from being so indecisive.
but guess i still have to accept the fact that i couldnt work for the admin one. its all fated ba.
=[ *cries*

2007-09-12T20:42:00.000+08:00

been working for 3daes and i felt so tired.
guess its due to lack of sleep ba.
todae is the most tiring day.
tried to chiong finish all the documents, but chiong dao my neck aching, eyes pain, hands tired and i still havent complete. ='[
so gonna go back on fridayto finish it.
*sigh* time to look for another job again. =[
i hate it!!

2007-09-08T21:50:00.000+08:00

feeling very emo todae for no reason.
no mood to do anyting.
just wanna be alone.
dun ask me wad happen to me, cos i dun even noe it myself *sigh*

2007-09-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

went to giordano warehouse with nat,yiling and mike.
we went for "interview".
but we super sway can.
when we finish filling the form alrdy past 5.
interview time over. so we gonna wait for their fone call.
had our dinner at ah mei cafe located at amk hub.
finally we had our prata. yummy.
hmm. will be starting work next mon at raffles place.
but 3 days assignment onli.
gonna hunt for job after that again. argh.
anyway can some kind soul come down to accompany me for lunch =]

2007-09-05T23:33:00.000+08:00

been watching why why love for the past few daes
finally, i finished all the episodes !
he jun xiang so shuai can. and he's sweet in the show =]
wang chuan yi oso.
anyway, went amk hub with sis in the evening.
and its time for shopping !!!
brought myself a pair of shoe, a necklace and a top. =D
guess its time to look for a job.
before i rot during the holidays without any nice shows to watch =X

2007-09-03T23:20:00.000+08:00

celebrated yiling's bdae todae.

watched evan almighty at the cathay with classmates

walked around ps after the show.

went arcade and we played bball.

so damm paiseh.

had our dinner at swensen.

as usual, we played 5 10 15 after dinner.

stoned outside ps before heading home.

nat . qianyunat . qyqianyu . yiling . natqy . yiling . nat

2007-09-02T23:06:00.000+08:00

o1 september 2oo7 - saturday

spent the whole dae watching secret and why why love.
secret is still so nice can =]
i wanna watch it again for the 3rd time.
but the quality super sucks la . TSK
as for why why love. its super nice can
now at episode 8 le. woohoo.

o2 september 2oo7 - sunday

went expo to support davis's singing audition.
woohoo. ah ma can realli sing eh.
plus he composed his own song.
super eh..
hope he can make it to the finals =]
after that, had dinner with family at macpherson.
chilli crab !!! yummy.
crab mee hoon!!! yummy.
and my favourite !! kang kong.
wahh. tink i gained alot of weight after this meal.
but its worth it =X

HAPPY BDAE YILING !!!

nat . qianyu

yiling . qianyuhuining . qianyunixon . qianyudavis . qianyu

2007-08-31T17:44:00.000+08:00

went back sec sch in the morning with sihui, meichun, khai, jason, zul.
missed sec 5 life badly ='[
our coffee corner, my classmates, our classroom, the time spent together.
headed to j8 to meet net and sam after that.
had pizza hut for lunch.
cheese fondue again ! yummy.
after lunch, went vivocity.
shopped ard. but i brought nth ='[
the dogs at the pet safari so cute can, got 1 kip walking in circle.
how i wish i can bring them home =[
headed down to forbidden city at clarke quay after dinner.
stayed there till ard 9plus and we headed home.

sam . qianyusihui . qianyuat vivocity .jason . qianyu

2007-08-30T17:28:00.000+08:00

went comex with classmates in the afternoon.
had our dinner at kfc.

headed to the arcade after that.

the guys & huining played the bball game.

after that walked to esplanade.

played 5 10 15 there till 11plus.

managed to catch the last train home. =]

ann . qianyu bazhang . qianyuhuining . qianyumicheal . qianyuyiling . qianyu

2007-08-30T02:03:00.000+08:00

went town to catch secret.
finally i get to watch this movie after so long.
the show was so super duper nice can !!!
esp those behind parts, so sad and touching =[
such a waste that the gal died.
if nt she could be with jay la !!!
they so sweet together. ='[
ahh curse those classmates for making fun of the gal.
shit them!!!
gonna catch the movie online tmr.
its so super addictive =]

i wanna go to 20yrs later.

2007-08-29T01:57:00.000+08:00

finally finished all the exam papers !!!
ddi paper todae was hopeless.
totally hopeless.
esp the sql procedure part. i totally skipped that.
regretted for not even looking through during revision. argh!
but anyway its over.
now must pray hard that my gpa for this sem still can get at least 3.0
anyway town with classmates after that.
and it was raining heavily.
so we ran under the rain to get to heeren and cine
and we got ourselves drenced.
such an unlucky dae. =[

eileen . qianyu

2007-08-23T20:59:00.001+08:00

yea ! finally finished ooad paper todae. !
even though i noe that i will do veri badly for this paper,
but im still very happy
cos onli 1 more paper to go and i can slack lyk nobody business !
isnt it someting to be happy abt.!! =X

2007-08-18T22:03:00.000+08:00

been mugging for 2 daes.
and i still dun have much confidence for monday's NT paper.
instead of studying, im watching tv and blogging now !!!
ahh. im in deep shit.

[ 16th augest 2oo7 - thursday ]

celebrated nixon's bdae with eileen, yiling, bazhang, micheal, puitung, alan and jonathan.
watched rush hour 3 at ms.
then we shopped ard ms.
after that the guys played bowling, while the gals just stoned there.
went pizza hut for dinner.
cheese fondue. !! =] yummy
then the guys played 5,10,15 again to clear all the leftover food.
this time round, the food super gross can. tsk.
salty + chessy + spicy = shit ? LOLS

2007-08-14T21:59:00.000+08:00

[13 augest 2oo7 - monday]

went town with si karc and the guys after showing the teacher our ntp configurations.
it been so long since si karc went out together.
so we started cam-whoring in the middle of far east whr the fountain is.
pple are looking at us. but we din care so much
they are just KPOs. opps =X
anyway, had our dinner at cine ljs.
then headed to heeren for more shopping !!.
again, he's nt working todae. went heeren last fri too but he wasnt there ='[
when can i c him again !!!

[ 14 augest 2oo7 - tuesday ]

gosh. im so slack !
i need someone to motivate me to study again !
havent realli started revising for the very 1st exam paper which is ard 6days later.
i need to study ! i must study ! but i just cant do it.

2007-08-08T13:57:00.000+08:00

yest had AIM and IS common test paper.
tsk. both paper realli gone case la.
esp AIM. the actionscript part, i totally write rubbish.
even multiple choice qns i oso duno. seriously hopeless can.
hais. i alrdy kind of expected that my gpa for this semester would be veri ....
realli no hope for this semester alrdy.
summore i duno wad to study for fri's paper.
hais. then after common test still need to chiong AIM project then chiong finish, study for exam.
argh, i hate NYP!.

anyway, instead of spending my time wisely to study, i watched angel, i love u. =X
this is the 2nd time i've watched this show.
but the show still so nice can !!!
esp qiu ze's part. so sweet =]

2007-07-30T01:24:00.001+08:00

been feeling very very stress this few daes.
and this stress is going to stick with me till 28Augest.
hopefully i wont go crazy or even kill myself during this period of time.
cos im breaking down every now and then.
anyway, gonna try to finish my projects by this week before i can settle down and study for my common tests.
but seriously, i doubt i have the time to study for common tests.
since now my AIM project is kinda screwed and i still havent complete my ooad and ntp project/presentation. hais.

somehow, i wish i could appear to be stronger infrt of others.
but i cant seems to hide my emotions. hais.

2007-07-15T23:40:00.000+08:00

hais. i cant take it anymore.
its so stressful this yr lahs !
there's so much tings to do within so little time.
gonna translate jap role play script and memorise the whole script by week 15.
and there's jap test again in week 15/16
gonna do configuration for ntp project.
gonna start on ooad project, aim project.
hais. seriously i hope i wun screw up anyting again!

iguessitwouldbebetterifimdead. =[
imtired.reallytired.
iwannaslpforever.

2007-07-10T06:08:00.000+08:00

[ o7 july 2oo7 - saturday ]

went causeway point to service my fone with nixon
then mit yiling after that and we headed down to town to mit bazhang.
had dinner at ljs. yiling's favourite. hahas
walked ard town before heading down to esplanade to mit puitung.
initially, wanted to go dxo, but it was so super crowded.
so we headed down to clarke quay.
chatted at starbucks 1st. then played 5,10,15 dere
then walked to mos.
mos was oso crowded, but we still went in. =)
ehh there realli veri complicated sia.
all the pple ....
but nvm got free "show" watch. LOLS.
then me n yiling kip saying lai liao.
they super hiong de can. tsk.
din realli danced. we onli shake shake abit nia.
then went off at 3plus
chatted,stoned,lamed and stuffs beside the river
walked to esplanade at 5plus. so cool ritex =X
stayed there for awhile.

reached home at 7plus. tired.

yiling . qianyu

sleepy us

yiling . qianyu . puitung . nixon

2007-06-30T02:41:00.000+08:00

im suppose to be slping now !!! at 11.41am !!
yes ! 11.41am. i onli slept for 8hrs ! [ i noe 8hrs alrdy is enuff, but for me its nt! ]
but my brother woke me up. !!!
it been so long since i can slp dao hen late and he woke me up!!
i feel lyk killing him can.
i wanted to go back to slp, but i cant!!!
hais =[[

___________________________________________________

super shocked and sad when i saw this news in the afternoon.
http://u.mediacorptv.com/story.aspx?Editorial_ID=576&SubCategoryID=19
everyting is so unexpected.
i tout my eyes was playing trick on me when i saw the title.
hais !! he is still so young.
he has a bright future.
he has so many fans, friends and family who loves him.
but he had alrdy left this world.
why do talented pple always depart from this world at such a young age !!
hais ! =[

may you rest in peace ..

2007-06-29T14:41:00.000+08:00

finally finished our last paper. DDI !!!
but .. the erd qn so difficult and complicated . =[
went for dinner with si karc and other "hao jie meis" at j8 ljs.
nvr feel so relaxed for veri long le.
chatted almost everyting. nowadays de teachers are so .... TSK!
after dinner, walked ard j8.
nothing for us to shop ard so we went to the arcade.
then to bus interchange to see hello kitty stuffs.
went home after that.

yiling . qianyu @ ljs

LOLS funny faces.

mr.keong ba zhang . qianyu

eileen . qianyu

eileen . qy

2007-06-24T14:45:00.000+08:00

din study much todae.
onli read thru the ddi quiz and gone thru some rad stuffs in the morning. hais i've been slacking for 2 daes straight. im beyond hope !!
anyway, was at my sis's hse the whole dae.
my niece is getting more n more violent. lols.
but she still so cute plus super active la.
play with her till im so tired. =[
anyway its my mum's bdae todae.
so celebrated over at my sis's hse.
went home at 9pm.
tired. =[

emo is back to me once again.

2007-06-23T00:59:00.000+08:00

went back to sch in the afternoon.

asked davis abt rad and ddi stuffs. then started crapping in the library.

went home 1st before going down to the party tingy.
before that mit bazhang at ps for dinner and we had ljs.
crapped alot along the way. lols we super crappy can. >.<
went clarke quay to mit the rest for party ting.
the best part of the party is during the dance session la. i lyk the way they dance ! super nice and energetic. if onli i can dance lyk them lahs. =[
and tommy kip shaking me. partly cos im too stone?..

but im nt a toy kies ! so better dun shake me anymore before i bite or hoot u again. =X
went to walk ard with bazhang after that.
walked to the bridge outside fullerton hotel and took some pics. but those pics quality turn out to be veri bad. all my lousy fone's fault !!

then to esplanade. but we stayed there awhile only cos todae veri crowded.

then we walked to ms.
super jialat ting is our sense of direction realli veri lan .. >.<

luckily we still manage to anyhow walk to find our way out.

fullerton hotel

at the bridge outside fullerton

i can touch the bridge !! (i noe its lame)

bazhang emo-ing

now it's my turn to emo

the sea. ! beautiful !

beautiful scenary !at ms .emo is good !

2007-06-21T01:11:00.000+08:00

6 more daes to rad paper.!!
8 more daes to ddi paper.!!
and im slacking right now. !
duno why, i cant seems to focus.
hais. tried looking thru rad todae but im realli lost. =[
esp lab 5 and 6. what is by reference and by pointer.
i know nth abt it. hais.
just now tried recalling wad i've memorise for ddi, but guess wad .?
MY MIND IS BLANK!!!
sometimes i realli wish humans could just stored those information into our brains so we dont have to memorise lyk siao.
can someone pls invent such a useful ting !
hais. enuff of those craps.
seriously, i need someone to motivate me !!!
stop me from playing games, watching tv, daydreaming and doing unneccessary tings.!
most importantly, stop me from eating !!
have been eating alot these few daes. !
anyway, someting terrible happened todae.
my fucking thumbdrive spoiled.
what a "good" timing. when i nid to refer to my labs and stuffs.

2007-06-14T22:32:00.000+08:00

body aching all over when i woke up.
so xin ku can. =[
and i tink im allegry to the seawater or wad.
there's red patches on my face. !!! hais
finally marketplace's result is out. and again we din did veri well.
shit the game. lame game. idiotic game !!!
tink gonna stay at home for the rest of the holidays after going out continously for the past few daes.
realli nid to start doing projects alrdy. gonna submit IS and marketplace report after holiday. sianx la.
hais time is running out. =[

2007-06-14T14:45:00.000+08:00

mit yiling at bishan mrt. then headed down to habourfront mrt to mit the rest.
waited for eileen and her bf at habourfront mrt.
walked to vivocity to mit nixon,liyan and apple.
had our lunch at ljs then took monorail to sentosa.
reached palawan beach. and we started playing in the water
the water so damm salty lahs. tsk.
when the rest reached, we played some ball games in the water.
burried tommy under the sand when he planned to suntan. LOLS.
played till ard 5plus. and we went to bathe.
headed down to lau pa sa for our dinner.
and then walked to esplanade.
those drawings at esplanade are so nice la! omg.
stayed awhile at esplanade then we walked to ms to get some drinks.
saw cq and audrey at ms and we took some pics.
walked back to esplanade after that. took some pics and went home.
anyway thanks bazhang !!! for the hello kitty bubble gum.!! =]

yiling . qianyu at ljs eileen . yiling . qianyu

eileen . qianyu

bazhang . qianyu . yiling bazhang(kor) . qianyuour reflection yiling . bazhang . qianyu at esplanadenixon . qianyu

2007-06-13T14:45:00.000+08:00

mit lynette and samantha at bishan mrt at 11plus.

headed down to cine and we took neoprint !! =]

took mrt to douby ghaut to mit the rest. but they was late.

me and sam took alot of fotos while waiting for them.

headed down to vivocity.

watched Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End.

sihui wanted to be mrs. will. LOLS

had our lunch/dinner then shopped ard vivocity.

took fotos at vivocity before heading down to esplanade.

walked from clark quay to esplanade.

on the way to esplanade, we stopped at the bridge outside fullerton hotel and started camwhoring..

went home at 11plus.

leg aching from all the walking todae. =[

neoprint =[samantha . qianyulynette . qianyusihui . qianyu taken at vivocitytaken outside fullerton hotel random shots.

2007-06-12T00:37:00.000+08:00

went town with sis todae.
shopped ard wisma. then taka.
had mos burger for dinner.
walked ard taka.
brought a hello kitty cushion & a pooh bear for my niece..
anyway saw march at taka. was veri embarrased cos i was hugging the cushion when i saw him.
walked to far east after that.
brought my foundation.
initially wanted to shop for tops,bottoms and shoes.
but end up wasting money on all those unneccessary tings. LOLS

2007-06-10T22:07:00.000+08:00

went out for dinner at bukit timah just now.
celebrated father's day in advance.
ate alot just now.
guess it's time for me to go on diet again !!!
im way too fat. and short . =[

2007-06-09T21:44:00.000+08:00

went back to school to do marketplace.
finally, its the last quarter alrdy.
which means we dun haf to crack our brains to tink of those brands and ads stuffs.
but still gonna do a report for it. sianx
anyway stayed in school till 4pm+
headed down to town after tat.
went to cine yoshinoya for lunch/dinner 1st.
then its shopping time !!! =]]
hang ard cine. then went to heeren.and i saw him* !!!
all thanks to bazhang !!
he spotted him* in one of the shop .
bazhang! gd eye sight eh !!.
took neoprint !! but short of eileen. =[
then headed down to wisma. then to cine ljs.
at ljs, me n yiling kip luffing cos of bazhang's ban li .
hahas. so damm funny. then we saw san li oso =X
chatted till 11plus. then took mrt home.
super tired. but fun =]

si karc.

2007-06-08T15:00:00.000+08:00

ended lesson late todae.
headed down to amk and reached at ard 9plus.
this is the 1st time we had our dinner so late. hahas.
celebrated joyce's bdae. then took some grp fotos.
went to pasa malam with bazhang and micheal.
reached hm at ard 11plus.
super tired.

HAPPY BDAE JOYCE!!!

2007-06-04T01:15:00.000+08:00

guess wad. its 1.15am now.!!!
and im veri veri high cos of the marketplace result!
nat !!! we din stayed up late till 4am plus yest for nth!!
all the time we spent for this quarter dou din go down the drain.
din waste the time we supposed to spent on studying jap!!!.
im so happy and glad even though we still nt the top 2 in our industry.
but the result of this quarter is way beyond wad we expected.
this week is last quarter of marketplace(finally!!).
but there's test everyday. so tink gonna do marketplace during the weekends alrdy
*sigh* hope we can do veri veri well this quarter.
but still quite scared that the same outcome would happened to us.

anyway still must thank ah pui's grp !!!
for staying up late yest to help us check whether all the stuffs we did are correct not.
THANKS!!!!
lets chiong together this quarter..

2007-05-30T23:12:00.000+08:00

gosh. next week would be a veri veri stressful week.
hais. 4daes dou got tests. summore still have to do marketplace.
sucks la!!! must pray hard that this quarter can earn. if not gone case le. =[[
most importantly, i must motivate myself to tink hard for the jap oral script!!
although i have been cracking my brain for the past few daes, but nth comes out. sad.
haf to rem all the vocabulary as well, if not i would be so dead on thur.!! =[

holiday pls come faster!!!
i wanna go shopping !!!!!!

2007-05-26T19:04:00.000+08:00

im so lazy to blog nowadays..
was quite buzy throughout this whole week..
busy with marketplace proposal & sch work.
hais. sae dao marketplace jiu veri gek !!
topid hell shit teacher. he's realli veri shit !
hate him! hate him!!
hais. anyway week 8 is a nightmare for me!
there's AIM lab practical, JAP test and JAP oral.
hais. having difficulty remembering those jap words lahs.
summore haf to prepare a speech for oral. kill me!
i cant even form a sentence in jap. and now i haf to prepare a 2mins speech in jap.
that seems so impossible for me.
i realli realli veri regret taking JL2 this semester.
din noe it would be so difficult and stress la.
hais no more weekends for me for 2 wks.
gonna study jap !! rem every single word.
if not i would be veri dead on 8May 07.
hais i so envy my brother la. holiday so long.
todae still can jio his friend come over play mahjong !
so tempting !!! tsk!.

2007-05-19T16:53:00.000+08:00

so many tests nowadays.
and there's hmwk every single week.
worst of all is jap is getting more n more chim alrdy compared to last semester.
2 programming tests coming up next week. so stress..
anyway, saw sihui and meichun at j8 yest.
it been so long since i last saw them =[
i miss them so much !!
hais. when can i slack and slp lyk a pig ?
when can i have the time to go out with my friends. ?

mood haf been changing constantly this few daes.
i felt that im going to break down veri veri soon.

2007-05-11T23:15:00.000+08:00

todae, finally i realised how bad and horrible i am.
all thanks to the gal who had made the comment abt me.
although after hearing the comments made by her, i felt veri angry and depressed
but it was her comments that made me felt that perhaps i shld change the way i behave in public from now on.
hais.
i've been trying veri hard for the whole ddl lesson nt to tink abt it. but i just cant do it !
why cant i just ignore that hurtful comments.
im so useless.
if only my life will end tmr. how nice will it be.
no stress, no sadness. nth ! except freedom.
y cant i go back to the past. whr tings aint so bad for me.

hais. i felt damm bad that i ignored si karc when they toke to me just now.
im so sorry. i hope u all will understand.
if i din ignore u all earlier, i probably wont be able to ren until the end of the lesson.
anyway i still must thanks u gals for being there with me.
thanks bazhang and my "dog/owner" too.
im sorry for always giving u guys troubles.
and thanks for tolerating with my nonsense all this while.

2007-05-10T21:32:00.000+08:00

[ o3 o5 2oo7 - wednesday ]

was veri tired early in the morning.
as usual. the asshole ddl teacher taught so fast todae.
bth . cant he just lower his speed of teaching ?!?
hais. got ddl quiz next wed . tink ard 60 questions. wth.
so damm stress.
went to elp to do marketplace with nat after sch.
headache. but we actually managed to complete ard 3 to 4 hrs.
phew . but still gonna go thru the whole ting again and make some editing .
hais. everyting isnt going veri smoothly for us . =[

[ o4 o5 2oo7 - thursday ]

woke up very early todae cos of the RAD lesson.
cannot late for this class. if not she will ..........
reached sch at ard 7.52am. so me and nat walked slowly.
then reached lecture room at 8am sharp. LOLS
we so zhun .
ITP lesson as usual. so boring. it makes everyone sleepy !
then OOAD is the best !!! got dolphin chop eh. so cute
damm kan chiong for NTP lab test.
and i cock eye la. nvr read the whole qn jiu write the ans . tsk
jap lesson was super stress again.
many more words needed to memorise. gonna jiayou !

its enuff! i cant take it anymore .
hais. i duno how long more can i ren !
but i will try !!!!
someone help me pls ! ='[
im breaking down any time .

2007-05-05T02:15:00.000+08:00

its 2.32am now
and im having a bad headache now !!
most importantly we're shld be slping at this time after a long dae in sch.
but right now, we're struggling over our topid marketplace project.
stress. stress. and more stress.
tink after wrapping up this quarter of the marketplace, gonna work on our infocom security project alrdy. but we dun even understand wad the teacher want us to put in our report la !!!
*#$*&#*&(#&%(
its only week 3, and yet there's so much tings to do.
bloody hell !!!..
some of the teachers this sem totally sucks !
so irresponsible.
hais. next week gonna haf practical test alrdy and i noe nth abt the lab.
this semester super hopeless . hais =[[
i cant take it anymore .
somebody kill me pls !!!

2007-05-02T18:04:00.000+08:00

im so tired !
i cant take it anymore. =[
projects projects and projects.
one after the other. lyk so wth.
hais. early in the morning and i feel lyk slping alrdy.
luckily i saw him* before ddl lesson, if not i cfm wanna slp in ddl lesson!! he's my energy !!!
hope i can see him* everyday in sch !! so i wun feel so dead and tired =)
stayed back in sch to do marketplace and infocom security project.
and i dun even understand the guildlines of the infocom security. how dumb can i be.
hais. suddenly everyting seems so meaningless for me.
=[

2007-04-28T21:26:00.000+08:00

[[ 27 april 2oo7 - friday ]]

so many unlucky tings happened on si karc recently. tsk.
i shld not elaborate further. just hope that tings would get better for us =)
started working on marketplace, there's so much tings to consider .
its so stressful. and every week, we must wrap up 1 quarter.
hais. lyk this duno how are we able to concentrate on other projects.
RAD lesson sucks practically. the teacher is so dots. cant stand her at all.
went to j8 for dinner after our lessons. ljs is so damm gross with all the flies on the window. its totally digusting !!!
headed back home after that. and discuss with maria and nat abt the marketplace ting.

[[ 28 april 2oo7 - saturday ]]

went over to nat's hse in the early afternoon to do the marketplace ting.
finally we managed to wrapped up the 1st quarter ! =))
and the happiest ting is we have 4days holiday !! sat, sun, mon & tue !!
but guess most of the time we would be discussing abt our projects and revising jap ba. hais.
its so stressful this yr and everyting seems to its be tougher.
guess im gonna work hard from now on.

2007-04-26T22:09:00.000+08:00

todae is just not my dae ..
im so unlucky todae.
in the morning, waited veri long for the bus due to the rain.
but onli 410 came. twice summore.
so i decided to take the bus to interchange and walk to the mrt station. but it was freaking crowded.
then while waiting outside the OOAD lab, i was kana hit by someone whom i duno.
he hit me by mistake cos he thought i was yiling. but then yiling was standing beside me at that time. LOLS .
so i was wondering is the guy blind or wad. =X
then i continue crapping with yiling they all.
suddenly bazhang called his friend, shu zheng( i tink ) . then i tout he was asking me to kip quiet, then i said shu jing(quiet) la wad shu zheng.
so malu lahs. den when we going for break, i was luffing and toking to yiling.
and i nearly bang onto someone summore he was only standing right infrt of me, but i din saw him.
den i tink he kana chua tio.
tsk . so many malu things happened in one dae. =X
anyway jap class todae was alrightx.
but there's still so mani tings that we need to learn !! =[
bless me !!!

2007-04-24T17:54:00.000+08:00

[ 23 april 2oo7 - monday ]

it been long since i last blogged. LOLS
anyway went town with yiling, natalie, puitung and sinweng.
shopped ard far east.
headed to heeren. and i brought an addias sling bag. =)
had dinner at cine ljs before watching 200 pounds beauty.
as usual, we crapped alot.
200 pounds beauty super nice and touching. !!!
i wanna watch the movie again .
and the songs is nice too =)

2006-11-08T11:55:00.000+08:00

i suddenly felt so old .. =((
BUT i really appreciate wad MIT0611 have done . love u peeps !!
*sigh* but sch ended so late todae, so couldnt go out =[
but gonna celebrate with purpishh this fri =))
and celebrating with samantha,net,david etc this sat . =)))
thanks all those who wished me thru sms/ in person/ msn [ hopefully i wun miss out anyone yea]:
- purpishh - audrey, chaiqin, chaiyen
- samantha
- lynette
- sihui
- meichun
- khai
- david
- pinpin
- weikang
- natalie
- yiling
- eileen
- joyce
- maria
- nixon
- micheal
- samuel
- sinweng
- apple
- amos
thanks samantha,lynette,sihui,khai,pinpin and jason for the present. =)) its cute. i lyk it hees
not forgetting MIT0611!!!! thanks for the 'kaka' and bdae card =))
im so touched !!
not forgetting my sis for the pizza treat, my bro & mum for my bdae cake, my dad for the ang bao . hees
i <3>
ehh paiseh for the long wind-ed "speech" lols . =P

2006-11-04T12:21:00.000+08:00

went bugis with yiling, nat, nixon, alan, puitung, samuel and tommy ..
took neo .
but turn out to be .. =[
shopped bugis street and we are all tired .
but i wanna go shop again !! lols .
i need more clothes ..! >.<
going to run out of clothes to wear to sch le
hmm . energy came to singapore alrdy .
but guess i would skip this chance to c them this tyme . so many hmwks to do .
stress . ! =[
kunda ..
anyway good luck to those taking "O"s . esp chaiqin , lynette , jason, khai, david, colleen.

2006-10-19T21:27:00.000+08:00

todae lessons wasnt as bored as usual .
cos oop teacher is mad .
df teacher is humourous .
lols . tmr end lessons at 12pm !! cos no lab !!
super shiok .
watching death note tmr after sch in town !!
cant wait to watch the movie ..
L !!! =))

2006-10-19T14:05:00.000+08:00

one word to describe this semester : BORED !!
1st day of school already made all of us sianx half alrdy .
i onli enjoyed the 1st 2hr of jap lessons .
the rest just sucks . esp communication skills . >.<
why is communication skills related to IT course ?!?
it's such a boring module with a boring lecturer . LOLS
i dread going to sch on tues !!
cos haf to study frm 9 to 6pm !! (summore only one hr break)
plus on that day haf programming lessons . kill me pls !
i just hate programming !!
anyway gonna enjoy on friday .
lols. =)))

2006-10-16T13:53:00.000+08:00

argh !! tmr sch reopening alrdy ..
i hate it !!
somemore i havent enjoy during the holidays .. !!!!!!
=[[ gonna go shopping on wed !!
there's so much things that i wanted to buy .
anyway, was down on luck recently .
met all kinds of werido .
todae one is the scariest lahs.
sit beside me somemore . >.<